I am such a horrible blogger... why? cause I do not give the loving this blog needs for approx two months!!!(And how I show my loving? writing rubbish on the blog =) )
You may not know it but everything around me makes me think of you. Heck even my main line of work and entertainment is pretty much what you do too. I worry and rejoice at the same time. Such a confusing mixture of feelings that I go through through my time with you.
Nothing has really changed though. Still I yearn for your eyes to be plastered upon me. still i yearn for your mind to always have a room for me. Still I yearn for the touch of your hand against mine. Still I yearn for the embrace that we can never get tired of. And still, last but not the least, I hunger for the kiss that we always share while no ones looking.
But yet again lots change storm around us. With us in the center of everything, but yet we too make everything our center.
Sometimes I wonder what do women think when I try to speak to them. By this I definitely do not refer to my physical appearance (I pretty much can guess it actually *jiggles my fats*). I refer what kind of a person do you think I am. Am I a flirt? Am I a rude person etc etc... Many of my friends went clean and told me that I look like some kind of casanova (an UNSUCCESSFUL casanova i should add). Some said that I look like the sort that can score As for every single test). Some even say that I am probably one of the holiest saints they could ever meet (Which just so isn't true >.<). Through it all it started to make me worry a lot(especially about the casanova thing) whenever I try to speak with women be they young or old. When I just want to just talk to them. But no matter how careful I am... there will always be misunderstandings and confusions that I am unfortunately and inevitable the culprit of. I dun wanna say much on the details so if you're curious ya noe wad to do :P
Sinfonia is coming again!!!! (for those who don't know it's just this NYP Symphony Orchestra concert) it's just one month to go.... (and somehow I feel that I have just made one of my biggest mistakes) hope my section can get it together even though there will be many changes. This will be my last performance >.< hope I don't screw it up....
ps: To my one and only, If you're reading this I just wanna tell you how how how how how grateful I am for bringing such joy into my life. There is much I wanna say but I dun wanna make this blog to mushy wushy so I'll just tell u in person :P
MoOn^Ey3s signing off
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