Thursday, April 26, 2007

Serious Case Of AMNESIA

Why do I have amnesia? well... It officially took me 15 days just for me to remember my password(Yea I counted cuz I was juz $(*&#@($*@&# bored)

I could have posted like tonnes of things in this (*$#&@(*#$&@ blog of mine but juz because of my $#(@*&$(#@*&$ "amnesia"I could remember my password to write those thoughts down... and when i FINALLY logged in.... I remembered I've got ($#*@&#@(&$@ amnesia and I could not remember what I wanted to write down.... SO much for being an IT "professional" I think i would not survive in this world with this amnesia.... zzzz driving me insane....

Honestly I don't what is happening to me.... I am feeling terribly blue... don't misunderstand me though.... I am not sad or anything.... this feeling somehow is too special to describe.... it's a blend of sadness and happiness blended altogether that words just fail me. It is clean like an acoustic guitar but has the noise of the electric guitar. Maybe it's just my mood swings =\

In approx one week I'll be leaving for Chengdu(Time realli flies) I could still remember vividly I was telling my parent that ONLY MAYBE i'll be going overseas and here I am... confirmed with tix and visa and all ready to go(well other than the packing of bags and the flu jab la >_<) Though it's my first time going overseas alone... I can't really feel any excitement or whatsoever.... Maybe it's the blues.... or maybe the excitement as a kid within has already died...

however un-exciting that may be... I do look forward to living with my "family" for the next 3 months... I'm sure there will be quite a lot of clashes between us (I have a good feeling BGR is going to be one of them) but yea Getting over them is part of life =) ugh... I do hope my bad habits dun scare them away though hahahahahaha...

As for my love life... not much of a choice now I definitely have to put everything I have on hold (but my love life with the Lord will inevitably carry on =) ). Maybe... just maybe things willll change for the better when I get back from Cheng... I'll probably be more of a mature boy if not a man to better determine this.... Whatever it is... it's definitely on the hold =/

It's only when writing this I realise how much I love Singapore despite of it's many shortcomings. Heck I think I even love Singapore's shortcomings. I'll miss all the friends here in Singapore too even though it's just the 3 months. I'll miss all the usual lifestyles I have in Singapore :'(... (kinda brings a bit of tears to my eyes)

So imma end this post here(before I really start crying)...... Good Bye and Good night =)

Mo0nxEy3s Signing Off
PS: Some advise on what I should bring overseas would be welcome by u readers =)