The feelings I feel. The smiles that stretches my lips. The tears that falls inevitably down to the ground. The eye brows that I stressed. The very thoughts make them this way. The very memrories shall never leave me.
They never leave for I will do them justice. They will never leave for I love them. They will never leave for it is they that made me into the man I am today. I will definitely never forget the people who gave me those memories be it good or bad. I shall honour them. And may I keep my word in this.
You have made my day a sunny day everytime you smile. A rainy day everyday you frown. you affect me to the point that I may have already become a part of you. It scares me sometimes for I have always been alone and never trusting. It scares because I am afraid that I may affect you badly too.
Yes you have become part of me. And yes I am afraid. Not afraid that you may reject me. Not afraid that you may shout at me. Not afraid of being hated. But What I am afraid is to have done something to have caused any of those things. To have done something to hurt or offend you. I believe myself to be a very cowardous man before or after. I just pray you will be happy.
Fear is something we have to fight and challenge every single day. I fought countless battles against this enemy called fear. I only fear that I battle it too often and not pay attention to the other more important things in life. I just have too many insecurities >.< . I find myself very very foolish sometimes. Ergh On the brighter note i just went to E-mei Shan!!!!(e-mei mountain). AND GUESS WHAT? The first big revelation about the mountain? I only saw ONE nun. The rest were all Monks. Not that I have a problem with monks. Or my hormones wanting the nuns(Hey... I got a better girl to look at everyday :P). It's just that... I always thought that mountain was supposed to be something like a nun mountain or something. Oh wells I can't complain much about it. It's really pretty cool up there(and I do mean it quite literally) the natural scenery and monuments are realli quite breath-taking =).
Pardon my skills in photograpy >.<
Of course! WHen you go to E-Mei you have to go to visit them temples!(and sadly with no nuns). I decided to give respect to their religion and not take pics and such of their temples and whatnot =)(BUT on the other hand I really thought it quite wrong that they sell entry tix for the temples =\... I mean incnse and joss sticks are fine la but this?>.<) HOWEVER!!!!! NOTHING! AND I SAY NOTHING!!! can stop me from taking the pictures of the
RESIDENT MONK~
KEY!!!!
Hey hey hey... They are quite dangerous okie! Rumoured that they killed someone b4 you know!(But that is like the rare case la =) )
I feel that there are times when I worry too much. Too much sensitivity is just scary... Maybe it's just mood swings. =\
ps: I might not be posting much on the tag board as the network here seems to block me sometimes.
