Why is it that you catch my eyes so?
The word infinite limits it's meaning itself
IT IS DONE!!!! MY JAVA PROJECT!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!
Pardon me... It has been very very long.....
Honestly now let's talk about women.
Why is it that I keep falling into these kind of entanglements? Of the matters of the heart? of the mind? of the flesh? seriously it is all too cryptic for me to know. It must be fate that made me this way. To place me in situations of which I would run away if I have a choice. But I do not have a choice. I cannot run away. I cannot run away from her or them. It's just like an invisible cage entrapping us both with blindfolds just for us to sense each of the others presence. Is it the mask you're after or me? Is it your mask I'm after or is it you? I want the answer but yet not the pain and sorrow. I want the answer but not the change that may bring. I want the answer but not the commitment that follows. I want the answer and too not the accompaniment that binds us together. Even so more complicated are the threads of kinship binding and connecting all of us together. So thin are they any wrong move snaps many.
Pardon me for the complicated paragraph... But this is the storms of my mind, you have been warned(by the top title =) )
Alright today was pretty alright la.... finished my J2EE project (hooray!!!! Banzai!!!!!) and among others I believe my magic trick(I call it the flipping card) is pretty much perfected =). I realised I need to play a bit more soccer though. I am getting quite out of touch(and playing in my leather shoes ain't a good idea).
Today while I was relaxing after the soccer match. I saw Girl D(another girl I am fond of but not romantically =) ) holding the Final theory book for driving. Which reminds me that I have not finished my course for driving yet!!!! Damn I need to start getting all those tests done and get my license done. I dun wanna waste money by spending another year in BBDC(Bukit Batok Driving Centre).
And talking about learning stuff. I seriously wanna learn more things!!!! I wann learn how to sing!!!! I wanna learn the harmonica!!!! I wanna learn the saxophone!!!!! I wanna learn the flute!!!!! I wanna learn the Piano!!!! AND SO MUCH FREAKIN MORE!!!! But yet I know I cannot have time(and the money) to learn all of it. I guess I'll have to take it one step at a time to learn them one by one.
With reference to the first paragraph, yea I do feel a bit love-sick. Probably because I feel too lonely. Probably of other reasons. I seriously don't know. But one thing i do know, I cannot do anything. I cannot risk this for it is not worth it. The seriousness might not even be there. But however it might even be there. So tough the matters of the heart I am speaking in cryptic again. But what can this sinner do? So hopeless am I I have no strength for this. I could only just pray......
I will start with my gifts you have given me for they will not go to waste
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Masks
I will always remember the smile, the hugs, the kisses and the moments shared together
Actually I kinda regret for the many stupid stuff that I have done to myself. The trends that I tried to follow. The idols that I tried to worship and be like. It made me wear so many masks. With each mask I wear I change my personality and traits. There was many a time when I wore too many masks at one go that I forgot Who I really was. It seemed that the real Huzaen was vanishing while the characteristic traits of the masks took his place. Who am I? I couldn't really answer that question.
Sure many know that I have had quite a number of girls liking me romantically. Whether or not they are serious is another matter. But they probably never really liked me. It might be the masks that suited their flow, their trend, their likings and loves. I have no idea how it works for a woman's mind and I have surely come to know it is useless for us martians to understand the venusians (men came from mars while women came from venus as they say). But I do know for sure, I was putting on different masks for different people to suit them and adapt to them. I have become a ditto for human beings. It was an internal personality battle that I broke down resolving the aftermath and pieces from that battle. Two times it happened, two times I lost something dear to me. All because of my masks.
As I went on to my tertiary level education, things slowly changed. One by one my masks slowly shattered and faded away. I couldn't be bothered. I just wanna be alone and be free. That was my only intent. One by One my masks shattered, Part by Part my true face showed. But is there even really a face left? It could be so that my face has moulded to much to the masks that there is nothing left within.My true face. Gone it may be. A face with ever-changing features but not one true. So hilarious it is that I don't even know how I look like. But what can I do? I just need to hold out the masks. till my face re-shapes again.
I find God very very generous. It's like I haven't given much to him but he still gives me everything that I have asked for. WHever I try to give my blessings away He will give me more. Really sometimes I feel God is mature and the same time a kid. But what could I say? He's not human and not to be applied by our usual context. When PIT told us to use our brains. I also feel like telling those people who looked down on God "use your brain!". For truly ye have never understood what is the meaning of limitless. The meaning of almighty and Lord of our reality itself. Get out of your narrow minds I beseech you. After all how can a limited mind like ours begin to comprehend the limitless Him?
A true king and ruler is not one who abuses his power and bullying others below him. But it is a powerful and strong king that serves and be humble to his people that is worthy to be a true king.
Actually I kinda regret for the many stupid stuff that I have done to myself. The trends that I tried to follow. The idols that I tried to worship and be like. It made me wear so many masks. With each mask I wear I change my personality and traits. There was many a time when I wore too many masks at one go that I forgot Who I really was. It seemed that the real Huzaen was vanishing while the characteristic traits of the masks took his place. Who am I? I couldn't really answer that question.
Sure many know that I have had quite a number of girls liking me romantically. Whether or not they are serious is another matter. But they probably never really liked me. It might be the masks that suited their flow, their trend, their likings and loves. I have no idea how it works for a woman's mind and I have surely come to know it is useless for us martians to understand the venusians (men came from mars while women came from venus as they say). But I do know for sure, I was putting on different masks for different people to suit them and adapt to them. I have become a ditto for human beings. It was an internal personality battle that I broke down resolving the aftermath and pieces from that battle. Two times it happened, two times I lost something dear to me. All because of my masks.
As I went on to my tertiary level education, things slowly changed. One by one my masks slowly shattered and faded away. I couldn't be bothered. I just wanna be alone and be free. That was my only intent. One by One my masks shattered, Part by Part my true face showed. But is there even really a face left? It could be so that my face has moulded to much to the masks that there is nothing left within.My true face. Gone it may be. A face with ever-changing features but not one true. So hilarious it is that I don't even know how I look like. But what can I do? I just need to hold out the masks. till my face re-shapes again.
I find God very very generous. It's like I haven't given much to him but he still gives me everything that I have asked for. WHever I try to give my blessings away He will give me more. Really sometimes I feel God is mature and the same time a kid. But what could I say? He's not human and not to be applied by our usual context. When PIT told us to use our brains. I also feel like telling those people who looked down on God "use your brain!". For truly ye have never understood what is the meaning of limitless. The meaning of almighty and Lord of our reality itself. Get out of your narrow minds I beseech you. After all how can a limited mind like ours begin to comprehend the limitless Him?
A true king and ruler is not one who abuses his power and bullying others below him. But it is a powerful and strong king that serves and be humble to his people that is worthy to be a true king.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
A buckload down the drain
Ah finally.... some time for myself.... and somemore time to bullshit...
The only way for evil to triumph, is for good men to do nothing.
Once again hello again!! Yea the past few days have been quite hectic as I had to prepare for various tests and presentations and the like.... the good news is... I HAVE OFFICIALLY FINALLY FINISHED 3 OF MY MODULES!!! 4 MORE MODULES TO GO!!!!
Okie lemme back track to somewhere around sunday...
Sunday sucked bad... why? because of the pre-release. Damn I felt that I have wasted my $40 there (even though I still got the promo card and 2 boosters). My card pool that I got was actually quite messy and I could not make a proper deck with it...Damn... I shoulda spent more time to construct my deck properly... But o well it's over already ... Ijust need to remember that for my next pre-release...
okie... now today was also bad too...(other than my presentation =) ) We had this performance for the open house and we play "The Four Seasons". If you ask me, We played horribly. All of us did not look at conductor and all that and the rhythm was seriously off...
That being put aside... It was still better due to us having a bit more people now. I am also glad that my "successor" is also trying her best to make the club better.THere may still be hope yet. I do hope that we could improve ourselves even more and not be a letdown to the band anymore. I just hope that the other members share the same vision as us.
Well I'm not gonna write much today... quite tired(Haven had good sleep for days)
SO yea... i'm gonna sleep =) bye *yawn*zzzzzz
The only way for evil to triumph, is for good men to do nothing.
Once again hello again!! Yea the past few days have been quite hectic as I had to prepare for various tests and presentations and the like.... the good news is... I HAVE OFFICIALLY FINALLY FINISHED 3 OF MY MODULES!!! 4 MORE MODULES TO GO!!!!
Okie lemme back track to somewhere around sunday...
Sunday sucked bad... why? because of the pre-release. Damn I felt that I have wasted my $40 there (even though I still got the promo card and 2 boosters). My card pool that I got was actually quite messy and I could not make a proper deck with it...Damn... I shoulda spent more time to construct my deck properly... But o well it's over already ... Ijust need to remember that for my next pre-release...
okie... now today was also bad too...(other than my presentation =) ) We had this performance for the open house and we play "The Four Seasons". If you ask me, We played horribly. All of us did not look at conductor and all that and the rhythm was seriously off...
That being put aside... It was still better due to us having a bit more people now. I am also glad that my "successor" is also trying her best to make the club better.THere may still be hope yet. I do hope that we could improve ourselves even more and not be a letdown to the band anymore. I just hope that the other members share the same vision as us.
Well I'm not gonna write much today... quite tired(Haven had good sleep for days)
SO yea... i'm gonna sleep =) bye *yawn*zzzzzz
Friday, January 19, 2007
System.out.println("I am going nuts");
I am quite amazed.... I have actually written in my blog quite consistently...
You are not what you think you are but what you think, you are
Okie I think is gonna be short cause I am in the middle of doing a project(it's drivin me nuts).
Alright today was pretty uneventful. It was pretty much school homework and tutorials and such. Nothing much except the fact that one of my group members for my project didn't come(AGAIN).
For those who do not know who she is... continue not to know who she is because I'm gonna complain a lot about her.
Henceforth she shall be known as girl C to protect her identity(it's not girl A or B due to the fact I have already used those alphabets and I am perfectly fine and fond of them(not romantically))
The project was given to us from the beginning of the semester asking us to develop a system for which allows students to select their electives. It was a fairly do-able project given that it was actually considered the easiest among them all.
So yea we went through the weeks doing the project with our assigned workload (with respect to our competency). Everything was actually fine. Perfect if I were to say so myself really. Girl C was actually one of the more hard-working ones in the group. I was actually quite slack(but I still did my job la =) ). So I actually thought things should go quite smoothly for us UNTIL.....
Somewhere in the middle of the semester(near Christmas if I am not wrong). We needed to develop a prototype of our assigned workloads. It didn't need to be near the final product what was needed was a bit of database connections here and there and user Interface all done up. So my team leader asked us to submit our parts to him and he will integrate the system for us.
The next day...
Huzaen: Eh how's the integration?
TeamLeader: you see Girl C's codes....
I looked.... I freaked out...
(this is gonna be a bit techie)
SHE WENT AND PUT ALL THE DATABASE CODES INTO THE JSP PAGES!!!! SHE NEVER NAME ALL THE FILES ACCORDING TO THE NAMING CONVETION!!!!! SHE NEVER FOLLOW ACCORDING TO THE THREE-TIER MODEL!!!!!
(team leader shakes me out of shock)
Team Leader: This sem is gonna be tough again...
And until now... she has not shown her anymore progress of her project... nor has she handed in any deliverables that is due . I dun mind if she was blur or incompetent but what made it worse was that she never even ASK FOR HELP!!!!
until now I have yet to see her for any of the important submission dates.....
most likely one of us remaining ones would have to be heroic again and do her portion of the work......
Anyways that being said I just hope she bucks up la.... I mean... We will have to soon decide whether or not to kick her out and condemn her(it's already nearing the end of the semester). And it's still not a good decision to make... But yea this is life and the working world(actually we're kinda lenient already and gave her a lot of chances) I just dunno how la... It's really all up to her.
Anyway yea It's gonna be Open House down here(not exactly here here but whatever) at NYP from 25 Jan to 27 Jan. So all you O-lvl or ITE graduate peeps do come and take a look!!! It'll be from 10 AM - 6 PM (i think).
And another thing!!!!! Magic Pre-release is here AGAIN!!!! WOOHOO!!!!! PLANAR CHAOS!!!!! SWEE MAN!!!! IT'S Tomorrow and sunday =) magic fans make your way to expo!!!!! but sadly... I am only goin for sunday one in the afternoon :'(....
Gotta finish my work... buai!!
You are not what you think you are but what you think, you are
Okie I think is gonna be short cause I am in the middle of doing a project(it's drivin me nuts).
Alright today was pretty uneventful. It was pretty much school homework and tutorials and such. Nothing much except the fact that one of my group members for my project didn't come(AGAIN).
For those who do not know who she is... continue not to know who she is because I'm gonna complain a lot about her.
Henceforth she shall be known as girl C to protect her identity(it's not girl A or B due to the fact I have already used those alphabets and I am perfectly fine and fond of them(not romantically))
The project was given to us from the beginning of the semester asking us to develop a system for which allows students to select their electives. It was a fairly do-able project given that it was actually considered the easiest among them all.
So yea we went through the weeks doing the project with our assigned workload (with respect to our competency). Everything was actually fine. Perfect if I were to say so myself really. Girl C was actually one of the more hard-working ones in the group. I was actually quite slack(but I still did my job la =) ). So I actually thought things should go quite smoothly for us UNTIL.....
Somewhere in the middle of the semester(near Christmas if I am not wrong). We needed to develop a prototype of our assigned workloads. It didn't need to be near the final product what was needed was a bit of database connections here and there and user Interface all done up. So my team leader asked us to submit our parts to him and he will integrate the system for us.
The next day...
Huzaen: Eh how's the integration?
TeamLeader: you see Girl C's codes....
I looked.... I freaked out...
(this is gonna be a bit techie)
SHE WENT AND PUT ALL THE DATABASE CODES INTO THE JSP PAGES!!!! SHE NEVER NAME ALL THE FILES ACCORDING TO THE NAMING CONVETION!!!!! SHE NEVER FOLLOW ACCORDING TO THE THREE-TIER MODEL!!!!!
(team leader shakes me out of shock)
Team Leader: This sem is gonna be tough again...
And until now... she has not shown her anymore progress of her project... nor has she handed in any deliverables that is due . I dun mind if she was blur or incompetent but what made it worse was that she never even ASK FOR HELP!!!!
until now I have yet to see her for any of the important submission dates.....
most likely one of us remaining ones would have to be heroic again and do her portion of the work......
Anyways that being said I just hope she bucks up la.... I mean... We will have to soon decide whether or not to kick her out and condemn her(it's already nearing the end of the semester). And it's still not a good decision to make... But yea this is life and the working world(actually we're kinda lenient already and gave her a lot of chances) I just dunno how la... It's really all up to her.
Anyway yea It's gonna be Open House down here(not exactly here here but whatever) at NYP from 25 Jan to 27 Jan. So all you O-lvl or ITE graduate peeps do come and take a look!!! It'll be from 10 AM - 6 PM (i think).
And another thing!!!!! Magic Pre-release is here AGAIN!!!! WOOHOO!!!!! PLANAR CHAOS!!!!! SWEE MAN!!!! IT'S Tomorrow and sunday =) magic fans make your way to expo!!!!! but sadly... I am only goin for sunday one in the afternoon :'(....
Gotta finish my work... buai!!
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Gullible Me
Due to the fact that a girl feedback to me abt small fonts making her unable to read... I shall use large fonts from now on
AND
Due to the fact that my picky sister is also currently reading my blogs regularly I wil TRY MY BEST to write this this in standard english(other than some words to express emotions)(ps: tag my board leh jie!!)
Something to share about in my club
Girl A:(whispers)Eh Huzaen.. That girl... Girl B(not actual name)... I think she quite compatible with you leh.... go for her la
Huzaen:(Stares at Girl B, then to Girl A) See how first.....
Approx One or Two months later
Girl B:(Whispers)Eh Huzaen.. THat girl... Girl A(of course not actual name)... I think she quite compatible with you leh... go for her la
Huzaen:(Gives Girl B the -.- face and walks away with his cello)
Today I just did something logically dumb in the school library. I was just in school minding my business and looking for some DVDs to borrow and watch. I picked the DVD and went to the machine to borrow the DVD (as usual). There were two girls trying to borrow 3 VCDs with one admin card(the loan quota is 2 CDs). So since they found out that they could only borrow 2 out of the 3. They disappointed turn away from the machine and saw me...holding one DVD..... THen something unexpected happened.
One of the girls:"Eh.... can we use your card to borrow this?"
Immediately in my mind I shouted "WHAAAATT!!!! ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND???!?!?!?! WHO WOULD ACTUALLY AGREE TO THAT?!?!?!" and I stood there stoning for around ten seconds to come out with the reply....
my came in scaring myself even further...I said "Err...uh... okie lor..."
I am just simply amazed at myself....
Then I just went on to scan the disc to borrow the item for them and they promised to return it on the same day. I did not know who they were at all.
Seriously I don't know why I even agreed to help them. I mean... you don't go helping people you don't know borrow stuff from the library with your own account(And I was pretty damn sure I wasn't doing this to impress the girls).THey might run away with the item and make you become an innocent victim. Is this what they meant by loving thy neighbours?
But anyways thank God they weren't bad people to steal the discs so I'm quite fine by that(Though my willingness to help them still baffles me).
Sometimes I just don't understand myself.
Oh yea... recently i've got a friend who got into a car accident. Well... It ain't exactly a car accident but I don't what you call a "motorbike" accident but oh well... back to point... my friend got banged by a motorbike. He flew from the impact and hit his head to the traffic lights and his knee hit the metal railing by the kurb. The panel for the maintanence of the traffic lights dropped out of it's place. The metal railing got bent in with the shape of my friend's leg. The motorcyclist ran away.
Now here come the miraculous part. My friend only tore part of his skin from his arm(and it isn't really a big area) and sustained no serious injuries and fractures to the bone. Afer he went to the doctor's that day... he went to school immediately to continue his lessons.
For those of you who think it's not a big deal. Recall those newspapers with the car accidents. Most of the time it's the car that gets thrashed up bad... not the kurb or the traffic light. for my friend;s case it actually happened vice versa! Man I think either my friend has God's favour or he really has one helluva strong body(He's quite buff by the way)
Lately I have been thinking.... What happens if we christians... (who inevitably HAVE TO GO INTO THE ARMY for Singapore) go to war? I mean, in war, people kill each other(Usually for the dumb reasons) and we do know that taking a person's life is wrong. We can't exactly give up our arms and let the opposition kill us to because the lives of the women(lucky them) and children of the nation depends on our victory or loss in battle. We also can't afford to give mercy because we also have to follow our orders to shoot to kill. Sure the likelyhood of a World War 3 is quite slim but it might still happen. All of us will have to go into the battle field and kill to save lives someday. I don't know... I just pray that somehow that wars will never happen no matter how small. I just pray that live will not be lost meaninglessly like those that happened in world war 2. I just pray that I will never have to make the decision between lives.
And now I just seriously pray I can finish my work :
AND
Due to the fact that my picky sister is also currently reading my blogs regularly I wil TRY MY BEST to write this this in standard english(other than some words to express emotions)(ps: tag my board leh jie!!)
Something to share about in my club
Girl A:(whispers)Eh Huzaen.. That girl... Girl B(not actual name)... I think she quite compatible with you leh.... go for her la
Huzaen:(Stares at Girl B, then to Girl A) See how first.....
Approx One or Two months later
Girl B:(Whispers)Eh Huzaen.. THat girl... Girl A(of course not actual name)... I think she quite compatible with you leh... go for her la
Huzaen:(Gives Girl B the -.- face and walks away with his cello)
Today I just did something logically dumb in the school library. I was just in school minding my business and looking for some DVDs to borrow and watch. I picked the DVD and went to the machine to borrow the DVD (as usual). There were two girls trying to borrow 3 VCDs with one admin card(the loan quota is 2 CDs). So since they found out that they could only borrow 2 out of the 3. They disappointed turn away from the machine and saw me...holding one DVD..... THen something unexpected happened.
One of the girls:"Eh.... can we use your card to borrow this?"
Immediately in my mind I shouted "WHAAAATT!!!! ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND???!?!?!?! WHO WOULD ACTUALLY AGREE TO THAT?!?!?!" and I stood there stoning for around ten seconds to come out with the reply....
my came in scaring myself even further...I said "Err...uh... okie lor..."
I am just simply amazed at myself....
Then I just went on to scan the disc to borrow the item for them and they promised to return it on the same day. I did not know who they were at all.
Seriously I don't know why I even agreed to help them. I mean... you don't go helping people you don't know borrow stuff from the library with your own account(And I was pretty damn sure I wasn't doing this to impress the girls).THey might run away with the item and make you become an innocent victim. Is this what they meant by loving thy neighbours?
But anyways thank God they weren't bad people to steal the discs so I'm quite fine by that(Though my willingness to help them still baffles me).
Sometimes I just don't understand myself.
Oh yea... recently i've got a friend who got into a car accident. Well... It ain't exactly a car accident but I don't what you call a "motorbike" accident but oh well... back to point... my friend got banged by a motorbike. He flew from the impact and hit his head to the traffic lights and his knee hit the metal railing by the kurb. The panel for the maintanence of the traffic lights dropped out of it's place. The metal railing got bent in with the shape of my friend's leg. The motorcyclist ran away.
Now here come the miraculous part. My friend only tore part of his skin from his arm(and it isn't really a big area) and sustained no serious injuries and fractures to the bone. Afer he went to the doctor's that day... he went to school immediately to continue his lessons.
For those of you who think it's not a big deal. Recall those newspapers with the car accidents. Most of the time it's the car that gets thrashed up bad... not the kurb or the traffic light. for my friend;s case it actually happened vice versa! Man I think either my friend has God's favour or he really has one helluva strong body(He's quite buff by the way)
Lately I have been thinking.... What happens if we christians... (who inevitably HAVE TO GO INTO THE ARMY for Singapore) go to war? I mean, in war, people kill each other(Usually for the dumb reasons) and we do know that taking a person's life is wrong. We can't exactly give up our arms and let the opposition kill us to because the lives of the women(lucky them) and children of the nation depends on our victory or loss in battle. We also can't afford to give mercy because we also have to follow our orders to shoot to kill. Sure the likelyhood of a World War 3 is quite slim but it might still happen. All of us will have to go into the battle field and kill to save lives someday. I don't know... I just pray that somehow that wars will never happen no matter how small. I just pray that live will not be lost meaninglessly like those that happened in world war 2. I just pray that I will never have to make the decision between lives.
And now I just seriously pray I can finish my work :
Monday, January 15, 2007
past to present
2nd Post!!!
Alright lemme confess something very very embarrassing. I actually took approx one hour to log into my blog account >_
Well I started through by logging in via the old blogger account thingy instead of the new Google account. SO..... I tried all sorts of usernames that I had used for various games and accounts from Bl@ck^Cr!mS0n to Mo0n^Ey3s. And got a lot of mails from the blogger support to retrieve my forgotten passwords. After lots of headaches and &(@#*&$(#$-ing. I tried the new account... and behold... I got in immediately... Which is like what.. now?!?!?!
zzz sometimes I feel my course is making me even more IT-iliterate than I originally am.(I am currently studying in IT)
But yea in one way I get to thank God for this "mishap" for I also found many blogs that I had authored long long time ago. I realised that I have changed a lot and My way of writing has kinda changed. Seriously my hair kinda stood when I saw what I wrote in the blogs. Lots of posts were negative with various "mood swing" posts in between many. Whether I have matured? I am not sure... But I am definitely sure I am nowhere as pessimistic and negative as I was 2 years ago.
In many ways today was pretty rushed. I had to rush out my test-scenarios for the User acceptance test and to study for my Digital Media Interaction Design(for more info, It's just common sense with a lot of dumb terms and jargon that's worth a rip-off amount of marks). I had to write out a draft for our Personal Development report(We're doing card magic, Thank God for the christmas movie I got some practice =) ). And yikes I still haven't done anything about my entrepreneurship report. And guess which educational institute I am? I am in a polytechnic in Sinapore (And I honestly though it would be slack)
I admire many people in this world. But yet it is not the powerful people that I admire, it's those who knows control and peace that I admire. Many people think that only the strong and the fittest can survive in this world. To a certain extent, I agree to that statement. But it is only the strong and the fittest THAT are meek and humble that I admire. For only the weak would succumb to acts of violence and pride and the string in control of themselves. Sometimes the greatest enemy of all man, is the devil within.
Oh yea I am currently also working on an e-mail to spread the gospel... thing is... I don't know exactly where to start and how to go about it. Honestly when I look all the way back into the beginning of my christian life, I knew God not through someone sharing the gospel to me, nor is it through church or sunday school. It was through music. I was "serving" in the chapel service in my old school(Saint Francis Methodist School). It was through that I finally got to know about this God ( even though i could never understand him). It was my curiousity that made me ask more and landed me to where I am. I am thankful really for my friends that brought me in.. I really should meet up with them someday.
Anyway back to point the idea is this. I will write down the gospel(trying to make it as friendly a possible so as not to piss people off).below I will write down my church address and timings for worship services and from which country that my church resides in (blog and telephone number too).I have a space below to let christian readers to write down their churches too. After that there will be a message requesting them to send to everyone they know and spread the good news to everyone in their address book(of course I won't write anything like "if you don't send this to at least 10 people you'll get bad luck or anything like that).
Yea so that should be what I have in mind... dear readers what do you think?
Alright lemme confess something very very embarrassing. I actually took approx one hour to log into my blog account >_
Well I started through by logging in via the old blogger account thingy instead of the new Google account. SO..... I tried all sorts of usernames that I had used for various games and accounts from Bl@ck^Cr!mS0n to Mo0n^Ey3s. And got a lot of mails from the blogger support to retrieve my forgotten passwords. After lots of headaches and &(@#*&$(#$-ing. I tried the new account... and behold... I got in immediately... Which is like what.. now?!?!?!
zzz sometimes I feel my course is making me even more IT-iliterate than I originally am.(I am currently studying in IT)
But yea in one way I get to thank God for this "mishap" for I also found many blogs that I had authored long long time ago. I realised that I have changed a lot and My way of writing has kinda changed. Seriously my hair kinda stood when I saw what I wrote in the blogs. Lots of posts were negative with various "mood swing" posts in between many. Whether I have matured? I am not sure... But I am definitely sure I am nowhere as pessimistic and negative as I was 2 years ago.
In many ways today was pretty rushed. I had to rush out my test-scenarios for the User acceptance test and to study for my Digital Media Interaction Design(for more info, It's just common sense with a lot of dumb terms and jargon that's worth a rip-off amount of marks). I had to write out a draft for our Personal Development report(We're doing card magic, Thank God for the christmas movie I got some practice =) ). And yikes I still haven't done anything about my entrepreneurship report. And guess which educational institute I am? I am in a polytechnic in Sinapore (And I honestly though it would be slack)
I admire many people in this world. But yet it is not the powerful people that I admire, it's those who knows control and peace that I admire. Many people think that only the strong and the fittest can survive in this world. To a certain extent, I agree to that statement. But it is only the strong and the fittest THAT are meek and humble that I admire. For only the weak would succumb to acts of violence and pride and the string in control of themselves. Sometimes the greatest enemy of all man, is the devil within.
Oh yea I am currently also working on an e-mail to spread the gospel... thing is... I don't know exactly where to start and how to go about it. Honestly when I look all the way back into the beginning of my christian life, I knew God not through someone sharing the gospel to me, nor is it through church or sunday school. It was through music. I was "serving" in the chapel service in my old school(Saint Francis Methodist School). It was through that I finally got to know about this God ( even though i could never understand him). It was my curiousity that made me ask more and landed me to where I am. I am thankful really for my friends that brought me in.. I really should meet up with them someday.
Anyway back to point the idea is this. I will write down the gospel(trying to make it as friendly a possible so as not to piss people off).below I will write down my church address and timings for worship services and from which country that my church resides in (blog and telephone number too).I have a space below to let christian readers to write down their churches too. After that there will be a message requesting them to send to everyone they know and spread the good news to everyone in their address book(of course I won't write anything like "if you don't send this to at least 10 people you'll get bad luck or anything like that).
Yea so that should be what I have in mind... dear readers what do you think?
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Hello World!!!!
Hello!!!!
Ah well I guess I'll start blogging again and all that( hopefully I continue to do so and not give up like my 2 or 3 previous ones)
And yea I know there's lots to change I am seriously to lazy for the time being so i'm gonna leave it like this for the moment =)
Honestly the year started out with a lot of stuff...
As I finish one job I have a lot more coming up to greet me.... sometimes I wonder whether life is just a vicious cycle repeating itself on and on without any change till the day we die... But it's okie as I know this time it is not meaningless as I am walking through this with God.
God? you may ask? Yea I am christian =)
Lately... I have been thinking of a particular girl. I don't even know why I am thinking of her. It's so funny because I don't even know her that long? Maybe It's the need for companionship maybe it's just that I am desperate maybe I am just plain crazy. Whatever it may be I do hope I will be able to find wisdom in how I deal with this situation.
Love... it brings so many questions to everyone's mind.... believe me what is a human without love? All of us need it, all of us want it and definitely all of us crave it... don't think so? Well think again... you know it yourself. However what raises many problems to many of us is that we don't know what it is. What makes it worse is there are many kinds of "love". And believe me it's quite shitty cause loving a person as a sister and loving a person romantically is really really quite different and it might end up in broken hearts and all that.
If you ask me.... love is like a coin... it has two sides... It is both happiness and sadness.... comfort and pain.... Suffering and joy.... you name the good... it has it's bad... The bad ... the good. Sometimes you can't even find any good for love... But all in all it's worth it... cause a it's a coin mate =) and it will all pay off more than money can ever be...
Love all =)!
Ah well I guess I'll start blogging again and all that( hopefully I continue to do so and not give up like my 2 or 3 previous ones)
And yea I know there's lots to change I am seriously to lazy for the time being so i'm gonna leave it like this for the moment =)
Honestly the year started out with a lot of stuff...
As I finish one job I have a lot more coming up to greet me.... sometimes I wonder whether life is just a vicious cycle repeating itself on and on without any change till the day we die... But it's okie as I know this time it is not meaningless as I am walking through this with God.
God? you may ask? Yea I am christian =)
Lately... I have been thinking of a particular girl. I don't even know why I am thinking of her. It's so funny because I don't even know her that long? Maybe It's the need for companionship maybe it's just that I am desperate maybe I am just plain crazy. Whatever it may be I do hope I will be able to find wisdom in how I deal with this situation.
Love... it brings so many questions to everyone's mind.... believe me what is a human without love? All of us need it, all of us want it and definitely all of us crave it... don't think so? Well think again... you know it yourself. However what raises many problems to many of us is that we don't know what it is. What makes it worse is there are many kinds of "love". And believe me it's quite shitty cause loving a person as a sister and loving a person romantically is really really quite different and it might end up in broken hearts and all that.
If you ask me.... love is like a coin... it has two sides... It is both happiness and sadness.... comfort and pain.... Suffering and joy.... you name the good... it has it's bad... The bad ... the good. Sometimes you can't even find any good for love... But all in all it's worth it... cause a it's a coin mate =) and it will all pay off more than money can ever be...
Love all =)!
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